Lousy day today. It was bad to nice to bad so I guess overall its neutral. Mr Azhar had posted up a list on who is to go remedial and who isnt and the expected grade of his to each individuals. And guess what? He expected an A1 from me. He thought that I was an A student. I used to ace but not now. Idk what has gotten into me. Ive lots of slacks. The promise I made to myself are getting lost. Are disappearing...

This is what I turned myself into. Maybe I shld start numbing myself again then work and work and work like last time. Then maybe I can ace again...

Today, I had a great time teasing people but I trust that I wasnt overboard, if I ever am, sorry. SORRY! ><
Had ulterior motives on woman, she got shocked when I called her back at traffice light then I was looking at her. She got really really puzzled and then *piak*, I smack her butt and ran off. She said I was very down to earth with my tricks. Owell, see if she can get me tmr. YOU STILL LOSE LOR.

Gonna go on study date soon like previous post. BUT, who shld I invite? Idk, Im gonna stick to 6 people again. Idk what to do becoz I feel sucky. I feel like im degrading myself in all means. I see myself reading and writting notes but nothing goes in. What's wrong?

Owell... Heidi Lim, MY CUTIE! If not well dont come sch la, cough cough here, flu flu there, later make other ppl sick and also later you more sick only la. hahahs, rest well ((:
I want buy coffee and mogu mogu. Gonna need to stock up becoz, revision dates are coming and its impossible to keep on going out of my room just to refill. My picnic outing once again, failure la. Sianz, three weeks in total no cca but tmr still have to stay back lor. Odac stuff. I havent compile the file and send over. Needa do filing ler. Byeeeeeee for now~





Above two pics are done by Boon Chuan. WALAO, FAIL LA, Epic can bo! His smiley face damn funny and good (Y). Good becoz it sent me lmao. Hahahs, great laugh, good one (Y).





Okay, above two again from Boon Chuan, those smileys did not make my lappy lag lor. Hahahs, owned la. ><
-> All this four pic from msn. (Above four)



Me and Felice~ We took a lot of pics on the bus after hiking. Camwhore till siao. These few are part of the many. I still owe her the posting on fb. Darn.



Advertising this sweet for free can! This sweet damn nice~ Everyone shld try ((:



Good good. (Y) We feel that we are like advertising this sweet. Seriously. LOL.



Okay, we look super funny lor.



OVERDUED. SORRY WOMAN.



Woman turned and saw this coming so she smiled here.



I shall end off with meeeeeeeeeeeee ((:
Bye peepo! ♥.

A big thankyou to:
1) Sretsnom - For your concern and suggesting to bring me to doc.
2) Shawn- For accompanying me and giving me your suggestions
3) Kbx - For your concern and thanks for texting homework over

Owell, that's all. Im feelong better now although head still throbs a bit. I was giddy just now but very normal. Thanks for all your concern.

And, GWS to Heidi my cutie, hahahas((:
(L) you la, so faster GWS. Miss you cute face nia.

Gratitude for Sretsnom for hearing me out too. I know your ears must have suffered terribly. Owell, anw, sry for making you see me to also coz you were worried that I might faint halfway :/

Hey, guys thanks and dont worry, im not sick yeah? Okay, got loads of study dates to plan. List of activity to decide too ((:



Sretsnom bangwall((:



My baby photo. Im kind of bored la.



Kaihui plus me. ELECTRIFYING SHOCK~



I kind of wanted to take one pic with my tongue out but fail. EPIC :x



I like this one (Y)


I totally love the brown hair of mine ((:



I love this combination for breakfast and for snacks time.



SEEDLING <3



I shall therefore end off with Boon Chuan's thousand island smileys ((:
(Y) GOODNIGHT peepo

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YES I AM STRONG. BUT IM FRAIL AT TIMES. I WANT ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS TO KNOW THAT EVEN STRONG PEOPLE HAVE FRAIL SIDES. DONT ACT LIKE YOU KNOW AVERYTHING ABOUT ME AND START ASSUMING. I DONT REALLY WANT YOU HERE EITHER. AND I HAVE MY WEAK SIDE. DONT THINK THAT IM IN ODAC I DO SPORTS AND STUFF, CHEER EVERYONE UP, AM THE BIG SMILEY IN CLASS SO IM ALWAYS STRONG.

I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT IM WEAK TOO. AND I ALSO NEED HELP. FUCK THE PERSON WHO ASSUMES. I DONT LIKE IT! I DONT LIKE YOU ASSUMING SO IF YOU DO THAT AGAIN, YOU THINK I DONT MIND. I'LL SCREW YOU. AND YOU THINK THIS IS THE BESTEST, THINK AGAIN.

NO ITS NOT. I DOWAN YOU HERE. GET IT? ONE MORE TIME, I WOULD REALLY CONSIDER SEVERING ALL MY TIES WITH YOU BECAUSE OUR CHARACTERS DONT MATCH. BEFORE YOU SEE ME FLY INTO REAL RAGE COMPARED TO TODAY IF YOU KNOW WHAT EVEN HAPPENED TODAY. THINK PROPERLY AGAIN AND BEFORE YOU EVEN ASK ME ANY QNS.

No qns to be asked bout today. I'll give no replies.

What love? There is no love. Bullshit yeah. Don't shit in my face and tell me you dk how to wipe it off yeah. Ask your momma fetch you home to shit and wipe it for ye, yeah? Fuckyou. Yeah? Fuck you real hard.

Can't believe why you are so naive. Eileen oh Eileen, naive little girl. you believed everything went your way but no. Don't think that way because not everything suits you. yeah okay, skip this shit hole.

For some reasons, I just like the word yeah. A lot of yeahs. Kayaking for odac soon but im not going due to knee reasons. My knee injury is getting better but may still recur. When I was sec one, I had this reason to skip, feel bad. Sec two, good reason to skip. Sec three, want to go but cannot because im excused by Ms Neo. I really wanna go all adventure yeah? But I cant.

Oh today I told Fatty one of my phobia. Only one. Still got some more to go. Weird huh? The strong big smiley also has phobia. I never share it with anyone. Im not gonna say it here only to my close ones yeah? Ice-cream loaded yet? No. I have been saying how much I wanted ice-cream and im gonna get some. I dowan the little vendor ones, I want shopping malls kinda one. Ive yet to go study and do homework.

And one more thing, Don't shit the freak outta people, coz ye shit not worth eh! Go home and talk to the mirror yeah? And see your shitty face and tell yourself all the shit you said to people, let's see how it hurts, you mfb. Lmao -.-

Just digging up some old piczxc. ((: Heyaaaaaa, byeeeeeeee.

Everything was perfect until all those bastards destroyed him. And when he falled, I shattered. Back then, I use to get what I wanted. My house (although its five-room) is very big. From my seven sunday beach green and white striped rocky chairs to the big projector as my tv, to a glass separated section of dining room and a long hallway connecting rooms. This was my house I use to have. Not until the day when my parents decided to move, he cracked and I shattered.

Those of you who has heard the whole story of my background would probably realize the stress im facing. The race that I doubt I can finish. My story seemed impossible to most and is pretty much found like a novel but, no. It happened to me.

The poem I cant construct, the work I cannot touch, the bag I cannot pack, the picture I tried to fill with colours.

Sometimes, I would secretly tell myself im the only child every now and then. But, no, everytime after I gave deep thoughts, no. He is still in the same identoty to me. No stranger even though we severed ties. After all these years, how could I say no?

Back then, I would happily go to bed, watching the night sky, hugging all my boosters, with my maid to tuck me in. Freedom, choice and a contented life. But, ever since that day, I cried myself to sleep in nights, fear the day tmr, hug my boosters in fright I would not wake the 2nd day and that I would see him. This is what I fear the most. Follow-up, I use to find time with my friends to slack arnd, giving shit to teachers and going home not talking to anyone. We use to have time tgt, like all of us but now, no. We go our separate ways and we barely pass a long, nice and sweet convo.

I would pretty much like to cut my kite's strings but everytime I bring myself to it, the string wont snap. This tells me smth, this is my life and im going to live it to the fullest. But i did tried to accept it, uve turn into a monster I cannot recognize. How many times must I cry for you? I pray for you, I care bout you, do you know? You turned into smth, hideous...

My life, my rule. How long will I walk on? I hope tmr is all well. Owell, we'll see each other again. But this time, I'll try not to look at you.

Hey baby, look here, will you go out with me? Imy so much. Hahahas, random sentence. I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO O OUT WITH ME! On thurs.

To Dental centre then to Np. Who's with me? Please text, msn or fb me. Also, i just miss my pri sch friends)):
Owell, pri sch life sucks for some part. I need to clean my room somehow. Fattysha is going out with me tmr. She wants my cooking badly. Proves that im a good cook. Plus, not to mention, broke my wine glass before. I desperately need to get a new file and some pen refillers. Plus, new notebooks.

I need black and white tube and sandals + flats. Im thinking of several outings and funds that are managable for church. Picnic is nice, kite-flying is nice, hiking is nice and what else ... ? Hehz, me and my leen-ish ideas.

I want to organize this big outing called the party overhead, consisting of stayovers, bbq and some other things. But, financial and time tells me im thinking too much. Owell, this is me. Frankly speaking, I want more books to flow in and occupy me so I will not think too much of stuff which makes me sad. Hao Xuan has been gone so long already, sometimes, I just cant get over him. He appears in my dreams and fades away and then comes back again. Why this point of time you make it this turn? Labs, clays, math, puzzle reminds me of you. Michael has change into another person during out streaming when you left me. Things have changed now. You coming back? Are you?

This one is to Taemin, my brother. Sometimes, when its hard to let go, look onto the other side and say 'let go'. Taemin, things that are hard to let go, take it as a lesson and experience and nvr repeat the same mistakes again. Forgive their foolish mistakes to trest you that way because when they look back in time, they'll all realize you were a true friend. Its their loss not yours. Treat them the way you use to because this way, you show your cool. You dont lose it. When life makes a turning point and its hard to steer, go slow and turn. You can do it. All the way Taemin! You and your college degree dream~

Peepo, sometimes in life, things may not go your way. But always always pray to the Lord and he'll always open his ears for you. It is your choice whether you want to pray or not. Make it a point to look ahead and be optimistic ((:

I cant post photos because of time constraints and some issues. For now, byeeeeeee.

Firstly, a big thank you to Taemin who cares when I fall. Good news, sheares run is files to fun category and is now 5km and due to this piece of news, lesser 5 km for me. Good luh ((:

Secondly, a big sorry to a few people for a few things.
SORRY FOR
-Not being so understanding > i'll try to be more understanding and not so worrying all the time
-Messing the whole room > No mood to clean up
-No stayovers > I have no time
-Giving things up easily now > I lost faith since this very particular day caused by a person

Thirdly, I'll make the best out of it and please forgive me alright? I love yall and you you you. Plus, I'll try and change myself for the better. Im sorry to touch alcohol which is like soon because, I havent been touching it a long time and a tiny drop wont kill right?

Last of all, God bless all.