Tuesday, June 8, 2010
People, I feel like quitting blogger. I dont understand why some people cannot read instructions. I stick a note on my door and said to leave me. But they still just came. I didnt want to talk afraid that I will break down and cry, shout, scream, yell. But, afterall, I did talk but break down after they leave. I talk to them because I pity their ability to understand simple things.
Today I finally just screamed while putting the plates. I felt fustrated I broke down and cried in the room. Theres so many things I cant tell to people. My good friends were there when I needed them. Thank you so much guys.
I emptied my godfather's wine now I have nth to drink. Many people are stopping me from alcohol, im controlling and now I miss carlsberg. I punched the bed fustrated and irritated. I dont understand why. Im a gentle two-faced.
-Reasoning: Coz I tend to say no to desires and pleasures when in my heart I said yes. That potential loud scream, YES!
Sometimes, when peoples ask me to admit and say it out loud my feelings to somebody. I cant, easy for them to say. I hate those who just did it. I cant really tell why. To someone out there, if you really came by this site, just wanna let you know, I love you so much. I cant get to see you and I cant get to text you. Im thinking real hard whether do you still love me. I dont know what you need neither do I know what I actually need. I have the tendencies to write diaries but now I quit it. I found penning my thoughts down are useless becuase you are not gonna read it.
Hey peepo, no issues or topics bout this post. I wont entertain texts or phone calls from ANYONE. SERIOUSLY.
Im getting ready for couzzie outing tmr. MY cash is going low. For those of you who think that my cash source grows on trees, eff off yeah? And, if you really insist, I wont enter anywhere becoz im short of cash and most probably, I wont borrow. You treat me what? Some effing beggar? Please, im not. I dont wanna be. And for those of you who keep on asking me to wait but in the end forget that im still waiting, grow up. Becoz, after 5mins, im gonna close up the chat.
To a special friend: You have been the greatest source of emotionally, physically and physcologically support. I can always count on you for my tasks. And you nvr fail to turn up. You are just my another good friend here. Someday, I know you will get her to be by your side. Im here supporting the decisions you made. Thank you.
To all my good friends ( includes besties) : hey, thank yall!
-RANDOM.
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